ಹಣೆಬರಹ (Destiny)

ನಮ್ಮ ಕಂಪನಿಯಲ್ಲಿ "ಚಿತ್ರ ನೋಡಿ ಕಥೆ ಬರೆಯಿರಿ" ಎಂದು ಈ ಕೆಳಗೆ ಕೊಟ್ಟ ಚಿತ್ರ ಕೊಟ್ಟಿದ್ದರು. ಬಹಳ ಹೊತ್ತು ತಿಣಕಿ ತಿಣಕಿ ಈ ಕಥೆ ಅನ್ನು ಬರೆದು ಶಹಬಾಸ್ ಎಂದು ನನ್ನ ಬಗ್ಗೆ ನಾನೇ ಮೆಚ್ಚಿಕೊಳ್ಳುತ್ತಾ ಆಸೆಯಿಂದ ಕಥೆ ಕಳುಹಿಸಿದರೆ ಇದ್ದ ಒಂದು ಬಹುಮಾನ ಪರರ ಪಾಲಗಬೇಕೆ! ಬರೆದ ಮೊದಲ ಕಥೆ ಅಳಿಸುವುದಕ್ಕೆ ಮನಸಾಗದೆ ನನ್ನ ಬ್ಲಾಗಿನ ಅಜ್ಞಾತವಾಸದ ಅವಧಿ ಮುಗಿಸುವುದು ಒಳಿತು ಎಂದು ಇಲ್ಲಿ ಹಾಕುತಿದ್ದೇನೆ. ಬ್ಲಾಗಿಗೆ ಭೇಟಿ ಕೊಟ್ಟರೆ ಓದುವ ಅನಿವಾರ್ಯ ಕರ್ಮ ನಿಮಗೆ. :)

Destiny

I am here since I know to think. We were many of us who grew together sharing the sunlight, soil and water we got. But few of them lost their lives recently when men axed their stem. I thought even I was going to be killed, but it was a thin escape. In the place where my friends lived, men have made what they call as ‘road’. Now I have made friendship with trees on the other side of road. We murmur to each other when wind blows. We initially wondered why man is building this road. Now we see lot of people moving on it.
People travel here so fast, recently a huge vehicle carrying sand knocked a man coming from opposite side. My friends on the other side told me the man was bleeding; they could only help him by blowing more air. This is a common complaint here; Daily one friend or other say that, they saw a man in motor hitting either dogs or fellow men. We always wonder where the road is taking the people, that they do not mind killing others to reach there.
Amongst the men who take rest under my shadow, or boys who pelt stones at my fruits, I like this small girl and her brother. Their house is only a few yards away from me. They spend lot of time playing under my shadow, appreciating birds on my branches, or collecting fruits fallen from my branch. Never have these kids thrown stone at me.
Today I overheard their parents talk that they should vacate their shed as the road is going to be widened. I felt they were hinting my death. When I brought the news to the notice of my friends they all let a painful sigh. The whole environment was misty in some time. May be it was our tears……
Contemplating the news for a whole day, we decided not to let the fear of death rule us. We have decided to bore more fruits and flowers, letting our seeds disperse in air. Before we die we should make sure our children find a safe place to live in and our species survives. I should not let my fruits fall down when people throw stones at me. Instead, may be I can give more fruits to the girl and his brother. They can plant my seed near their new home and take care of it. I can trust them more than anyone else. When I heard the news, I got a thought, how the growth of a dead thing like road can bring death to living thing like us!! I am still thinking!

ಹೀಗೊಂದು ಜಾಹಿರಾತು...

ಇದು ನಮ್ಮನ್ನು ಎಚ್ಚರಗೊಳಿಸೀತೆ?

ಕನ್ನಡ ... ಹಾ ಸವಿಗನ್ನಡಾ ...

ಗೂಗಲ್ ಟ್ರಾನ್ಸ್ಲಿಟರೇಷನನ ಕಲಿಕೆ ...

ಕನ್ನಡ ಟೈಪಿಂಗ್ ನ ಅಭ್ಯಾಸ....

ಕನ್ನಡ ಬ್ಲಾಗಿಗೆ ಸಧ್ಯದಲ್ಲೇ ನಿರೀಕ್ಷಿಸಿ... :)

Stomach filled artist...

Yesterday I had went to a 'Bharatanatyam' program. The program was kept by an organisation, whose responsibilities are looked after by a lady. She had called the well known dancer 'Prathiba Prahalad' for giving the program. The dancer after 'Ganesha Stuti' by vocalist, came to stage and told to audience, that she is disappointed with the number of people who have come to see the show, the lighting arrangements at the stage. She was not willing to perform and even if she performs it would not be a best performance of hers, as she had not danced in such stage for more than 25 years. Then she called the audience seated at the back to come front (just as our college professors would do) and gave some instructions to a person about lights on the stage.

Actually, I felt the auditorium was filled 3/4. But the hall was small to hold less than 100 people. I did not see any problem with lighting from the audience perspective. Donno, what problem she faced with the lights even before she entered the stage. I may be too amateur to comment about these. ( In fact, a hall size, strength there, depends on how much the sponsors of program can afford.) I felt, the above said problem of hers was to be discussed with the organisers and should not be brought till audience and creating a scene. Anyways, later she danced, but ...

I was thinking of a situation where I had gone to watch a Yakshagana program and the well known artist, ' Sri Shambhu Hegde' had refused to give program. It was a government program from forest dept. It was inter-state cultural festival arranged for some publicity, whose details I don't remember exactly. It was in 1990's. The Yakshagana program slot was at 6:00 p.m, but by the time the ministers and other guests left the stage after speech, it was 9:00 p.m. It was a one hour program and Ravindra Kalkshetra was supposed to be emptied by 10:00 p.m. After Yakshagana started, it seems the troupe got instructions many times to finish it as early as possible. On top to it, very embarrassing situation happened, where two guys from other state (may be they were drunk) continuously started making noises which could distract the audience n artists. The way they behaved was bad and irritating for everybody in the hall. Somehow, everybody was waiting for 'somebody' to send them out or scold them. Then finally irritated with all these 'Shambhu Hegde' came straight to mike and said they are winding off because of bad audience and organisers. He said with a big namaskara to the Govt, not to call them for such programs again. Some one among audience stood up and blasted those noisy guys for stopping the program and others joined him. After struggle for fifteen minutes we could come out of the crowd and when we were at vehicle parking, we could see yakshagana troupe, putting the luggage to the vehicle for their return journey to North Canara.

I feel an artist can miss the opportunity of performing and can reject his program on stage only when he faced some extreme conditions like this. That day every Yakshagana lover there felt Shambhu Hegde did right. But if an artist says I want to cancel program with not good reasons, I feel it only indicates that 'their stomach is filled', or they have forgotten the footsteps they came from if they had longed for a stage or opportunity to perform. I am sorry if this blog is looking as if I had some personal grudge over 'Prathiba Prahalad' , and I am using this blog to expose it. I was just trying to say along with talent if artists are humble, generous and understanding, audience and organisers can appreciate them more.

There are people in Yakshagana field also who act as if they are in menopause stage. Probably, if the attitude of few of our well known dancers improves than what it is today, the arts would have more glorious period. What say?

Gruhabanga

Hi all,


Wanted to share with you all about a book which sat in my mind for more than 15 days when I finished reading. Probably after a long time I read a book which impressed me so much. It is S.L.Byrappa's novel 'Gruhabanga'. The book was first published more than 20 years back. I got a chance to read it recently. The novel is said to be autobiography to Byrappa, though it is not mentioned any where.

I had seen few episodes of the serial taken by Girish Kasarvalli (if I remember right) which came in ETV. The serial had come out very well. I was impressed by acting of Lakshmi Chandrashekar, Malavika, Lohitasva, Shivram, chenniga, appana (do not know the name actors who played it). While reading book I could personify the characters with these people. The novel is picturise the life of people of Hassan and surrounding areas, from 1920's to 1950's.

Probably after reading the novel, I understood what does 'struggle for life' mean. The family in the story faces difficulties like famine, plague, war. These difficulties are well blended with the selfishness of the priests, patels and other powerful people of the village. The family I told above is mother with her 3 children, with her husband and mother-in-law last to face problems and first to make profit of a situation. In the whole book, the character of the mother is well built. She always thinks of what best she can do to come out of every worst situation she is in, instead of lamenting.

I was moved by her determination in one situation, where she would have married her daughter out of great difficulty to a nice guy and even before she goes to her husband's house plague would have attacked her. It gradually spreads to her second son, on whom she would have kept high hopes of educating him and bringing him up to a high position. In spite of all the medicines she gives, the kids die. The people who come back after burning the bodies do not find her in house. Few people think she would have attempted to suicide and starts searching near water bodies... But she would have come to a temple where her third kid is lying with initial stages of plague.
The novel has many such situations where she reacts with a very different state of mind than what I expected.

Probably if you are a person like me who get defeated even with small losings in life, we can get inspired by this... Happy weekend!!

Cant think of a heading!!

Hi all,

Just logged in to see if my blogspot is still active, and I still remeber it's login id and password. If you see this post you should congragulate my memory.

But I am just wondering if the day is counted when 24 hours is over or for every clock tick!!! It is 3 months I posted anything on blog, though I thought of 1000 things to blog; it is already been 6 months I wanted to take a major decission regarding my career with nothing much happening; it has been almost one year I got married, still I get up morning n search my mom to ask horlicks ...

Time is running... :(

Hmmm, I am getting a reminder from outlook to fill time sheet to be sent to manager. I need to say what all work I did in the week, and for how much time. Let me look back...wait ...

Dignity of employees!

Hi all,

A photo in today's Deccan Herald caught my attention. They had put a photo of senior Sub Inspector doing dips. It was punishment given to him for not maintaining his motorcycle!!! God knows what did the senior officials mean by 'maintaining motor cycle' and what did that Sub Inspector guy did to his motor cycle! [No further info was given in paper too.]

If punishment is required, give it in your office boss!! Why allow press ppl to take photo's of it and allow them publish in newspapers? Wanted publicity and some 'visista seva award' kind of stuff??!!

I also remember a police constable called by 'son-of-a *****' kind of words in a circle for some minor mistake in controlling people. I agree they are doing risky jobs and minor mistake can takes lives. But learning can be better done when taught in smooth words than humiliating like this in public! After all nobody wants to do mistake in their jobs knowingly!

I feel police and military people are doing thankless jobs. The senior management of these areas seriously needs some counselling on handling junior employees. Our government do not revise their salary, nor give incentives to make them feel proud of their work! :( And on top of it if this is the behaviour of the upper management, how can people survive in these depts or new people join these departments? When is this going to get corrected?

A Day began like this ...

Today morning I got ready very early. As early as I cud walk very leisurely to the bus stop taking ten minutes. Thanks to my mom in law who was doing all my work!!! :) Since I even had time to write a C program for finding GCD of two numbers sitting at bus-stop, I was seeing the kids going to school, women hurrying to office and men waiting for the buses, guys stareing girls ...etc. A bus just slowed down at a cross road very next to my bus stop and a decent looking man got down. He walked down the cross road just in front of me and in a low voice he greeted me 'Hi Darling'!!! Think poor guy cud not see a mangalsootra in my neck. But I had all the time in the world to take revenge against him ... and started yelling at him at the top of my voice possible. "Heyyyyy ... what do u think of yourself? What did u tell just now..." I cud think of at least 5-6 dialogues (more stronger ones) to yell at him. But did not get a chance to tell at all. Think he tot the whole women lot of Vijayanagar Bus stop wud come to my rescue for the volume I shouted at. He started literally running from that place. I cud sense the shiver he wud have had in his legs, bcos even I was bit tensed wondering what if he wud have come back to talk to me?!!!
But luckily he did not come back and my day was made as I had reacted a little different than wht I wud do usually. Most of the times in my previous experience the words I hear wud go into my mind after some 60 seconds, by which owner of the comment wud have sinked in some road or between ppl and I wud be left with bitter feelings! God helps me to begin few days with lotz a strength and presence of mind... :) Hope it continues with all the girls who are in similar situation like me...

-Suma Udupa.K.

Abt a dream which shud never come true!

Yesterday, my aunt said carrot rate now is 44Rs/kg, beans -44Rs/Kg, spinach 5Rs ... etc.

Me and my husband having started with a new family was wondering where it wud reach ...

My husband was quoting, this development is obvious becos we can see in our families itself the difference:
My grand dad was a farmer. He cud not fill all the stomach's of the family with farming. So the sons were sent out for earning. My dad and uncle's came to Bangalore. There was only one uncle in my native who did not want to leave roots. But he is so tiered of farming, he does not want his sons into this. So they are all aiming at engineering, medical seats - settling at cities ... None of us can stop them as everybody have the right to live the way they want. We are foreseeing to loose our roots in our generation itself... Thus we cannot goto our grand dad's place anymore ... We cannot see the village life anymore. We wont have any one in our family who expects rain to come on seeing a bird, who can bring us jack fruit, coconuts, pepper, pure honey, or call us to tell their cow gave birth to a calf, thier dog was chased by a lepord, or they are having peacock coming near thier house ...etc. [Beleive me these things are happening at my house :) ] We all just speak about which company we are working and which is the better company to which we can change to....


Thinking deeply on it I had a dream....


The people staying in the slum next to our road have somehow raised some houses for themselves. They are all moving about in car. This was bcos of the increase in the standard of living IT had bought in (I dont know how it helped them ...). Even we have car/person in our house and needless to say many electronic items in our house which was a luxury when we were children! But I see the faces of the people in the car, they are not happy... including me... I was reasoning out y I am not happy. I had obviuos reasons in front of me. People cud afford the one time investment like house, car, electronic items ...etc. But they cannot meet the ends for the food. Rice is 500Rs/Kg. So ppl cannot eat stomachful... If I wonder y, Govt says no farmers are yielding anything. Infact there are no farms ... All are independant families ... So it is importing all the rice... :( So, we decided to start farming in out new site instead of building house and raised paddy field there. It grew well and just before harvesting we had ppl coming to steal paddy!! We gave police complaint and we could see early morning a dozen police with AK 47 around our fields. The govt rules said that, there must be such a protection to the farmers and agricultural lands.


Well the further part of the dream was even more insane. I'd better keep my mouth shut rather than sharing it. If you feel I have to get my mental health checked once, I can do it. But just hope that this dream of mine should never come true. Bcos, I cannot afford food being so costly even when my manager give 80% hike, which anyway he does not give ...

Guys u need a attitude change!!

Hi,

Dedicated to : Guys who has complaints abt women riding vehicles!!!

Well, I am having handful of work in office. But I cannot resist anymore without blogging abt this...

When a girl passes the fast driven car, my cab driver complains, 'U cannot expect better way of crossing roads from a girl'!
(As if guys does not cross that way?? Goto area's like market to see...)

A women riding vehicle who does not go between two buses to avoid red signal, instead waits for enough place to go - Auto driver behind honking continuously : 'This lady does not go nor does she allow others to go. If women are given chance to ride, this is what happens!!'
(As if it was getting late to him to push his front wheels between buses and go and stand in the front row of the signal...)

A college going boy with his new pulsar: 'I dont go fast, bcos the girls are unpredictable. They can come anyway and can make us to fall...!!'
(College going guys also do careless riding. What can poor girls do, if he rides seeing them and not the road!!)


A woman driving the car in small road, the TT driver from other end yells at her : 'Y the hell did u bring the car to this small road?' (I feel bringing tempo traveller to that small road is also a mistake...)


An uncle of mine : 'All accident happens bcos ladies started driving vehicles. They cannot drive carefully!'
(This was the heights!!! The train, plane,lorry accidents all happens bcos the women drive vehicles from house to the market or beauty parlour?)

If you can understand the common point from above incidents and many more such situations, our Indian guys (or is it a universal problem??) cannot resist pointing to mistakes of women, especially when they are on vehicles. Most of the life killing accidents on road happens bcos of ruthless driving of BTS bus, trucks, lorries ...etc. If you see ppl pulling out each other's collar and yelling in middle of the main roads showing road rage, are mostly men. Ppl reporting it say 'it is a accident'. But when u see women on vehicle, a small hit or a skid, or a little carelessness ... the mistake is not just 'accident' but 'lady made the accident'...



I don't know when ppl learn to report the mistake as just it is and not pointing it with the gender of human race which did it?!! My blood boils when I hear complaints 'women did this... women did that ...' I feel like yelling back to them : 'guys u need a attitude change ... say that person did the mistake.'

But I cannot do it all the time. May be next time I can ask them to read this blog once ...

What do u say...?



- Cheers,

Suma.

Sleepy summer afternoon ...

Hi,
Summer has set in. My small cousins whose exams are finished are looking out to join summer camps. They come to my home to pass time and make me jealous of thier vacations!!!
I am all set to sleep after this heavy food in the after noon. I was just lying down and two of my colleagues woke me up asking if I am alright... Cannot sleep here. I am not finding any dormetry here, so trying to put water to eyes, drink coffee and trying to chase sleep out of my eyes ... Well actually I am spending whole 5 days of the week scolding myself for having to come to office... But week ends after noon at house, I realise how I miss the air-conidtioner of office (or the comforts of office)... Summer continues for another 2 more months still ... I am scared of weekends now !
When summer had just started, we had went to South Canara, my native. I still sweat if I remember the sun there. Well, well, I hear u say abt North Karnataka parts, North India, Chennai ... I know it is more hot there. But I cannot see my Bangalore and my native sweating and standing in the scroching sun! I feel strongly for its hardships. I had went to Madikeri from Manipal in the same trip. Happened to goto Kaveri Nisargadhaama n Haarangi dam. Had a chance to meet this lady Cavery. She is damn cool. She can chill ur feet if u keep it in her water!! I was totally impressed. Though the water level was not much, she had all the power to fill in us new enthu. I realised why TN and Karnataka people are fighting for her. But actually, in TalaKaveri, her birth place she cud not impress me more bcos of the construction work going there... Those ppl there, had dirtied her water with cement n dust! Hope she can escape from all these ppl soon...
I still remember other enthu fillers in that hot trip. The orange juice at madikeri (Costed 25Rs/glass) and Joy's Mango Duet ice cream I had in same place. Mean .. errr... there were many nice things of the trip, but it is a hot day u see. So I started talking of something cool. If u ask me wht is this blog all about, it is just a try to stay awake in the office. Thinking wht to write more is inducing more sleep in me. Lemme try some thing else to be awake. See u all...

Burden burden came down ...

Hmmm ... I wanted to blog many a times this month. But the urge came at wrong times like when I was cooking in kitchen, putting clothes for wash in bath room, in a team meeting in office ...Well now I feel I am little free, but I am not able to rememebr the 'n' number of topics which I wanted to blog .. :-(

Neways, today I am a bit relieved mentally. A long term confusion I had is solved, without hurting many people involved in it. Atleast they did not sound so ... Hope the decision I took is right!!

Actually all my blogs r looking very long. Let me make at least tis a short blog.I wanted to make it sweet too... But I am weak in doing two things at the same time ... I will end here ...

Fall ...

Two and a half years back ...
There was an walk-in in Robert Bosch. It was for ppl with experience of 2+ years. Some brilliant told me that, they give such statements in advertisements to avoid the huge number of freshers who rush to thier company. But if we go, they will take us. Me directly out of college with no job in hand and was ready believe anything and everything for an offer letter, went there. I saw many aspirants coming in and out of the interview room. I saw the gleam of experience in many ppl's eyes. Hmmm ... an waste travel, I thought. But I did not wanted to give up till the interviewer asked me to leave the place... Making a seat between those 'punt' guys I sat down trying to remember, how to declare structure, what are pointers ...stuff. It was about 2 hours,
(I mean... not when I remembered how to use structures and pointers...), that guy was calling all the ppl in front, back, right and left of me and I was blinking at him and the ppl who were lucky to goto interview room. Then I tought it was heights to sit here anymore. I went to that assistant guy and asked him y he is not calling me. He said, he is calling the ppl who were waiting from 3 hours first... :-P I did not want to talk more.
There was a guy sitting and continously talking to another guy and an young lady,some distance from me. I think they were observing my restlessness. I heard them giggle. Anyway, I did not worry abt all these, bcos my eyes were only on interview room and the expressions of the ppl who come out. After some more time, somehow I ended up talking to one of them and came to know his name is Kiran, from North Karnatka, working for LnT and many more info abt him. Even he came to know my non-stop effort to get a job in embeded systems or related domain. While leaving we exchanged our e-mail id's phone numbers and other contact information, as he had said he can fwd my resume in his company... Needless to say it was the only benefit I had that day staying for that long.

2 days later ...
I got a call from Kiran, he again reminded me to send my resume. Me a bit hesitant to take help from an unknown person said yes and we talked a lil general things ended our call.

2 more days after that ...
Kiran again called and said, the test pattern of L n T is very easy and I need not be hesitant to send the resume. He also added in his North Karnataka style of Kannada : "Naa nimgen upkara madtillari. Namgu reference kottre rokka bartada. Karch maddk beekalri. Adka force madak hateeni ... hehehe". I sent the resume same day.The call came in 15 days I had cleared all the rounds of interview ... But before they sent me an offer letter I got an offer letter from a company very better than LnT in payscale. I had to give up waiting for a offer from his company.I told him "sorry ri, nimge reference rokka kodsooke aagilla."Kiran "Irli bidri... Chalo kelsa sikkaithi. Namgu refernce kodri. Neevu dudd madkori, namgu jaasti sambla barohang maadri..."

We were calling each other and were talking on all topics on earth. His parents were searching a girl for him. He wud tell all his experiences in a humourous way. I think our call never ended b4 half an hour.

One and a half years back...
He had a good news to tell to me. He had got engaged. Our dialogue went something like this after that...
K: Ond sala sigri. Maduvi aadre nam betti baal trasa agtatiti.
Me: Yakri, nim Mrs. nu karkondu nam manege banni.
K: Aiyoo...aag matt barteeviri... Nan maduvigi innu baal dina aithi. Eno problem aagithi.
He said he is waiting for his sis to get married before him and som other factors which is stopping his marriage in near by time.
K:Alri, nim friend obranna ond year back noodiddu. Mat nodbeeku, maatadbeeku. treat kodsbeeku ant ansonge illenu...
Me : Aytu, nan maduve fix aagatalla. aaga bartini, kariyooke.
K: Aiyoo ... Nim maduve aadre, nim husband na neevu bittu nanna meet madooke bandange. Aamele maklu... samsaara... oooohhh... nan nenap nimg aagangilla.Nim neppau nange aagangilla...Mommaklanna adsikondiro vayasalle ri namge rest sigaadu. aaga nim mommakklu jote neevu banni. nan mommakklu jote naan barteeni...
Me: (Not able to resist his fore thinking and wanted to cut it ...) aytu banri... meet aagona.
We met at Ice Thunder (a hotel near by my place) we talked on how long we searched for a job after our graduation, number of failures we faced ... how few ppl cud make job at campus and we sat and analysing the reason for our failures... It was a nice meeting ...

One year before ...
I had a good news for him. I had got engaged.My marriage was exactly 9 months after that. He congragulated me heartfully. He reminded me to meet him when I had grand kids!!! :-P
But his marriage was already postponed once. :(

When I had cald him after some months to invite him to my marriage, it was a long time we had called each other now ... He was longing to settle in life. Thier marriage was postponed twice.But the dates were fixed as feb 11. He had said, careerwise he had bcom lead for a project. He has a chance to goto U.S. And was not finding time to keep in touch with any of his friends.

3 days before:
For once I have heard a bad news of Kiran. He has left this wife whom he married 4 days before, his parents, many friends like me, the whole world in fact ... He was the only unlucky person in his bus which met with accident. His head injured and ppl fled in all directions forgetting him, who was travelling alone to return to his company on an urgent work. The haste world moving in high speed did not bother to help him join hospital. He fought for life for 15 days and more... I am not able to reach him anymore in any of his contacts he had given years before ... :( I wanted to ask him how he cud leave his wife whom he married after long waiting ...

Sorry, I cannot tell the world better, how he always craved to live a full life and how he missed it at 30+ years ...:(

"Kiran, u've have abruptly ended our friendship pal!!! May ur soul rest in peace ..I am mumb to talk more..."

u can read these ...

Hi,
I think I cannot write a blog for some more days ... Not bcos I am busy with work. But I am busy reading blogs @ http://mydayzwithmyself.blogspot.com After reading the blogs of Abhinav at this blogspot from a week or more, I had a stomach full of laugh, with an admiration towards his sense of humor and a feeling of 'I need to improve a lot' in the corner of my mind.
I shud also tell u about the blog spot of my colleague cum friend Ravi @ http://ravi-says.blogspot.com. He has written on wide range of topics... Both r good ... If u r here to read what I write, then I can recommend u to use the time effectively by going to above links. But anyway they hav good number of readers for thier blog and it's number is many times more than the number of ppl who knows abt my blog... :)

Now that I have got som decent work at office after long break, making time to do that, n read blog n write blog.

Catch u soon ...

Majestic!!!

Well, all this started bcos of me and my husband's decision to watch a film. We first went to Forum being very well knowing the probability of getting tickets are less. We chose to go there first, bcos that film 'Mungaaru Male' which we wanted to watch was in very few theatres near our house and my husband thought it was quiet secure and safe in Forum than all others for various reasons. When we went to Forum, and parked our vehicle with great difficulty, as expected the tickets were sold out. Out of same great difficulty we took our vehicle back and paid parking fees and headed towards Majestic to goto Sagar. Now this theatre was chosen bcos, it was lil close to ur house and thought we can goto night show as it was already around 5.

Near Sagar, we found a parking near by, we walked some distance to reach theatre. By the time we reached it was 6:15. To our dismay the tickets for 7:30 show was sold out. We were actually astonished as we hardly any ppl near theatre but ticket being sold and there were not many waiting around also... But since, we had made up our mind to see a kannada film and help an kannada producer and show our 'Kannada abhimana', we started looking for black tickets. A guy came to us and offered 100Rs/ticket. We felt it was more and after a lil bargaining he said 90Rs is last and there are ppl behind to buy tickets and told we wud be in heavy loss if we do not buy ticket right then. We consoled ourselves that if we were to pay in theatre of Forum the ticket wud be even more and this is cheaper!!! My husband asked him for balcony tickets and he said since ladies are there with u(But I was the only one with my husband ... ;) ) I will give u a corner seat!!! Waa....ah, he was going to get a corner seat of balcony for a black ticket!!! My husband generously took out a 500 note and handed it to him . We were expecting him to give ticket immeaditaely. After taking the note he started searching tickets from his colleagues(??!!) We were watching him briskly moving and asking everyone for a ticket with a stun. We were murmuring and were discussing how the ticket counter ppl also wud hav involved with these guys to have sold all the tickets very early, that this guy is offering a corner seat for us. And how police men wud be blindly walking through them and having share in all these scandals...

To our astonishment in no time the man went to the other side of theatre and 2 men next to us called us and said he is going behind the building and warned us that we better follow him to get back the money at least!!! We started running behind that man in front of the theatre!! He went behind the building and there was barricade which is opened only for the employees there. He went inside passing that. There were hardly any ppl there and we also crossed the barricade... He went to two three windows and his face expression said he did not get the corner seat tickets... I was giggling at that guy for overreacting and getting into trouble. Now he again came to the front gate of the theatre and we had made a circle around the building. It was actually embrassing for us to run behind him and that guy was not stopping anywhere properly, to ask our money back ... After asking almost everyone he called us and asked us to hold money and said not to follow him and he wud get tickets himself. We stood their waiting with a sort of relief of getting atleast the money back... The guy after many moving around he got us two tickets. My hubby being completed his college in this area and had experiences of paying for previous day's tickets once, started with the checking. We checked the date, film, seat number in the ticket and then handed him money. That stupid guy said he found a corner seat for us in difficulty ...

Since, there was still time left for the show in spite of all these run abouts, we decided to eat something in Kamat near by. When eating dosa's there, we remembered our parents. When we called them, they said some good words for not having come to theatre in time and now spending so much amount on tickets...for having come to 7:30 show in winter....etc :(

But since we already had tickets and there was nothing in this world to stop us from watching film. We entered theatre and started searching for the rows from balcony. We went walking forward reading the row number and believe me when we found our row we were just few rows from the screen. It was Gandhi Class. The seat was in the middle of the row and and not a corner one too... We were pissed off and I started grumbling for having believed that bugger. But more we get pissed off less we cud enjoy film. Since past was past, I sat looking around the 'types of ppl' around me. We saw a family of 5 were two women where continuously scolding some one. When asked they said some guy took money from them saying they wud giv balcony tickets and a corner seat and he made them sit here. They wud have preferred to have not seeing the film ... --- ... When we asked how much they paid, the ladies said 100Rs/ticket. I was surprised (In a way overjoyed) to hear there were more bakra's than us.
I dont know still how many who watched the film that day or every week end wud be betrayed like this and are sent in to watch film!!!

Though there are many places where things like this happens, I feel this area of Bangalore is a good school of teaching about 'life' ... A guy who spends some ten years of his life here will come to see all the bad faces of life I guess, especially cheating ... It is same from 1970's I believe. I have proof from Mayor Muttana film(of 1970's) dialogue where a character says he is living in Majestic from 20 years and he knows everything. Bottom line of all the betrayals is the negligence of the other party. Inspite of knowing all the theories, at some time of life we end up learning a lesson from incidents like this... :)
But since the film is good, the photography is excellent, songs are good and the film is still running after 50 days, for anyone who asked us if we saw film, how much we paid ...questions, we say we paid 90Rs for Gandhi class and there was a rush that day ...etc stories (Just to cover our stupidity ;-))

Present is for u...

The continous work at home and office, tight dead lines and competition bring in lot of stress to people now a days. This is common with all people especialy when couples are both working... I happened to read a personality improver book from Johnson Spencer 'The Present' which is indeed a present when it is implemented in our lives...

It tells, when a problem or stress occurred to us, we keep it in mind and our thoughts linger about it whole time and we loose concentration on what we r doing. This wud spoil the current work and bring in more anxiety and failures to us. With a period of time the cycle cud repeat many times and would certainly drain us out.

To keep away ourselves from this loop, the book suggests to concentrate on present. If at all a problem bothers u, keep a separate time in ur schedule to come out with a solution and stop thinking of the problem. A problem at office has to be left at office only. It shud not be thought of, when watching a serial at house. Similarly our engrossment in office work shud not be troubled by the personal problems.

When a bitter experience of the past frequentls into our mind, all we can do & shud do about it is to learn a lesson from it which inhibits us from repeating the mistake again. Continous revealing of it will not give a solution.

The next is the fear and insecurity of future which failure brings to us. A well planned future wud tell us how to lead a life. Any failure inspite of that wud only be a deviation from those plans, which wud not cause much impact compared to a unplanned life.

Most of us wud be knowing all these but still we wud be in a vicious circle of problems every now and then. The book seems to tell to manage time in a effective and simple way...

Minchu

Hi,
Heard, T.N.Seetharam's new serial "Minchu" is going to start. Very excited to see it. Serials like 'Silli Lalli', 'Minchu' gives such a relaxation after the stressed day in office, in bearable traffic jam ...etc. For now 'Silli Lalli' is giving a full time entertainment when I reach home at 8:00 p.m. It makes me forget that I am alone in house, I have to cook ...etc. When I spend half an hour in front of T.V, I get the energy to cook within one hour. I'd like to see it especially when my husband is around. He laughs and enjoys even the small joke in it, and it is very fun to see him enjoying!!! :)

-Suma.

Naked naked ... full non-veg!!!

Wanted to tell u a story about a nation whose major income is from tourism. I was there for less than a week and it was my first flight out of my cosy nest(home) and from my nation. I wanted to bring in front of you the contradictions I saw there. The people there had embraced the Buddhist culture, which speaks of ahimsa but more than 90% ppl are non veg and country is famous for sea foods... Thier religion asks to treat fellow human beings, even animals respectfully. But since their source of income is tourism, the young women there are traded for money to attract foreign tourists and are looked at even worse than animals. :( I made this statement bcos, I saw an 'budda'(old) guy of west talking to a girl. We cud make out that he is fixing a rate for her bcos that street we went for walking is famous for it... He was holding her shoulders and testing her parts of body b4 he cud fix a rate. The girl stood there with a tarnished face not being able to protest. :-( We saw teenaged girls on the street trying to present themselves glamourous n attract ppl...

We had a professional tourist guide accompanied us in the journey for two days, who knew what to show and how to attract tourists. When we were done with all the water sports and were asking her for something else which we cud see in her country - She mentioned us about a dance show taking place near by at night. We asked what type of dance it was she said it was all girls naked dance!!! We gave a surprised look, maybe she thought we did not understood her language... So she repeated 'Naked Naked full non-veg!!!'

But, at the same time I did not find any beggars in that small city which was crowded with tourists more than localites, unlike our country. :( I know in our country, we have both prostitutes and beggars ... :( Will come back later to share many things about this first foreign tour of me...

Hi,
Have booked this palce to share my thoughts, and others thoughts which influenced me...
U can add to it by posting ur commnts... :)

-Suma Udupa.K.